This is where my silence ends..
Welcome
If you’ve found your way here, you’re probably carrying pain. Not sadness. Not heartbreak. But the kind of pain that splits your reality in half. The kind that drags you through days you don’t remember, where you’re breathing but not alive, where you’re screaming inside but no one hears it. Where trust isn’t just broken, it’s dead, and you’re left to sort through the ruins of who you used to be.
This site was born from that place. Not as a project. But as a way to survive what felt unsurvivable.
This blog is a deeply personal account of love and betrayal. At the height of my devotion, my fiancée of twelve years broke my trust, leaving me to face a shattered world.
What You Will Find
My story unfolds across four parts, each a piece of this ongoing journey:
1. The Betrayal
Where everything begins – and ends. The moment trust is shattered and life as I knew it unravels.
2. The Collapse
A descent into numbness. Two years lost in sedatives, alcohol, and the hollow silence of wanting not to exist.
3. The Reckoning
Emerging from the fog, only to face the wreckage. Homelessness, desperation and the painful attempt to rebuild from nothing.
4. The Rebound
A new relationship that promised healing, but delivered its own kind of destruction.
What This Is (and What It’s Not)
This isn’t a healing blog.
It’s not here to give you steps or solutions.
It’s not dressed up or designed to be comforting.
It’s a diary.
Some of it looks back. Some of it’s written in the middle of the chaos.
All of it is honest.